And finally...

I have decided for sure...I am not bowing under for anyone anymore. If they need me for something, they need to show it. I am done being crushed under. It's causing me health issues, emotional unstability and now lack of confidence.

I don't wish to feel weak for sure.

Love needs to liberate, not stiffle.

I don't know how to salvage myself this time... hope i will survive

Spent the whole night flitting between music and net surfing. Just restless i guess. Fidgety for stability of a different kind. Hurt for a reason. Hoping against hope. Still ???? weird !

maybe it's just me

Emptiness has a dimension.
Pain has a meanging
Hope is the vision
Fear is insecurity
Broken is a heart
does it matter, I guess not.

Life dosent stop
everything goes on, for everyone
Maybe 20 years will go by
Maybe everything will still go on
will I change, maybe not
maybe that is bad
Maybe that is just me

is me so bad
is me so weak
is me not capable
why am i doing this to myself

I should know i guess
but maybe i am just weak